Today, while changing a roll of paper towels, memories of Madeline flooded my heart and mind. One more time I mourned the passing of my little shoulder puppy. It seems I’ve been doing a lot of that lately probably because so much good change is happening for me now.
Yesterday, after returning home, I came through the garage doorway and instead of calling out to Gabrielle, which I fully intended to do, I heard myself calling out Madeline’s name. I know how confusing that must be for my still-here small white dog. Gabrielle just gives me that knowing look as if to say, “It’s okay mother.”
When putting up the toys for Gabrielle I came across Madeline’s favorites like skunk tail, duck duck and more bringing tears to my eyes but still knowing that Gabrielle needs the comfort of those left-behind toys along with her own. So I put them into her basket just as I’ve always done. (Note to self. Teach Gabrielle how to put up her own toys.)
Besides the remembrance to a sweet little girl the only positive thing about continuing to grieve like this is the memorial for a great little life. She caused revolutionary change in me by my watching her bravery and perseverance. Since her passing over I still admire and use her life as a roadmap when I make a life’s major decision.
And don’t get me wrong. I still see her occasionally but it’s not the same. I’d love to feel her little arms around my neck one more time and see the way she looked into my soul searching my eyes with love. She was and is a soul mate of the highest order. You do realize that a soul mate isn’t necessarily another human, I hope. If not you just learned something new.
So, here’s to you my baby girl. Mother will love you always Madeline.
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